ZEMBU: the day I found out my mom died by suicide

ZEMBU. Photos provided by Sophie Pellegrini.

ZEMBU is a female musician and producer with Japanese-Jewish-American roots. Born and raised in Seattle, she is now based in Colorado where she made her debut in the music world this January with “Lavender Taste,” a song about the subtleties of falling in love with her partner, Becca. Human is a song about the day she found out her mom died by suicide. Poetically honest, ZEMBU will take you on an indie-pop like journey to a relatable place.

 

Human is about the day I found out my mom died by suicide when I was 15 years old. I remember writing this song on my bed with tears pouring out of me—the kind of unconstrained tears that come after finally being able to feel again.” ZEMBU says. “Creating this song allowed me to drop back into that day—what I saw, what I smelled, what I felt. It has been such a healing process for me.”

 

 

 

“This song also goes far beyond my mom; it celebrates our humanness. How real and okay it is to feel the ups and downs of this life. That’s the beautiful part of being human.”

 

ZEMBU. Photos provided by Sophie Pellegrini.

 

 

ZEMBU hopes Human can help reduce stigma around suicide and support healing. “Through my mom and my own struggles with mental health, I’ve found it is necessary to talk about suicide in order to end the shaming that often surrounds mental health issues. The power of recognizing we’re not alone goes so far.” ZEMBU says.

 

 

ZEMBU. Photos provided by Sophie Pellegrini.

 

Filming the video was healing for ZEMBU. The elements were her inspiration. “Water. The ebb and flow of it, the waves, the current, the calm. The year before my mom died, we were living in West Seattle right next to Lincoln Park. Lincoln park lines a short part of the Puget Sound with views of the San Juan Islands and Ferries passing by” ZEMBU says. “During a particularly hard time in our lives, her and I would connect by walking there. We’d let the sun breathe through us and listen to the waves wash on shore. Water reminds me of this time of life and her. That’s what led us to Big Sur, California to shoot the music video. I knew water and the dramatic scenery would be necessary to capture the significance of this time. The close-up angles, the simple subtleties of my body, and nature all have the intention of capturing our humanness and the nature of who we are, as we are.”

 

 

ZEMBU. Photos provided by Sophie Pellegrini.

 

 

Song Lyrics

 

Verse 1:
Is a message with no receiver, a message at all?
I was rewriting this story, when you took the fall
Unfamiliar colors, beggin them to be the same
I was so ready to the take the blameChorus:
A knowing on the ride home,
A knowing without being told,
A knowing to be washed away,
A knowing from your mother’s soulI am human after all
I am human after all
I am human after all
I am human after all

Verse 2: 
A door opens in slow motion,
Faces tell before words can be spoken
Room sinks in while battling this notion,
Time halts and I swear it’s my faultAnd how do you tell her
She won’t say goodnight no more
Simplicity comes in a haunting form
How did this, how did this ever become the norm?Bridge: 
What if, what if, what if, what if, what if, what if
The note was never wrote
What if, what if, what if, what if, what if, what if
This is no way to live

Chorus:
A knowing on the ride home,
A knowing without being told,
A knowing to be washed away,
A knowing from your mother’s soul
I am human after all
I am human after all
We are human after all
We are human after all
ZEMBU. Photos provided by Sophie Pellegrini.

Deets

Social Media: 

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/zembumusic/
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/zembumusic/
Spotify: https://spoti.fi/2U3gGam
Youtube: https://bit.ly/2CCLcka

About Cynthia Wilson 109 Articles
Cynthia Wilson is a multimedia journalist with a Masters in New Media Journalism and a Bachelors in Journalism with a minor in Music Theory and Composition. She has a grassroots digital publication, Argento Studios. She is a content producer and co-founder of The Nashville Music Masters. She was the social producer for Green Mile Films, PR for Women’s Grand Prix at the US Pro Challenge, and Chief Relationship Officer for technology company Studio Hyperset. She is a music journalist, freelance writer, and digital content producer.

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